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time capsule 2012
THE TIME CAPSULE MEME year 2012 ♡ make yourself a thread so your friends can leave you messages with their thoughts about you, their wishes for you for next year, etcetera. ♡ you can also leave yourself a message... anything that you can look back on next year and reminisce about. ♡ on january 8th, 2013, this post will be set to private and put away. in december of 2013, it will be re-opened and then you can look through your old comments from the year before and do with them what you will. ♡ previous years' capsules can be found here. |
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Will we watch from start to finish?
How many will we witness?
And my answer only ever surmises-
Maybe a handfull of times, before the next life
In case you're wondering, for some strange reason, what song you had stuck in your head while ringing in the new year, that was it. Have you gotten over your Duncan Sheik fixation yet? I doubt it - you've been listening to the guy since your age was in the single digits, and you'll probably keep listening to his stuff until you die. Seems like a pretty good deal to me, but I guess you get to be the real judge of that, Future Me.
Speaking of...it's been quite a year, huh? You did it, you know. You went to another country. Not because someone told you that you should, or could, but because you decided it was something that you needed to do, and you didn't let anyone else stop you. Not even your own mother scared you away from it. Even though the going itself was pretty damn amazing, I think the why and the how means so much more, because you know what? It's a sign that we can do this. That we have the power to push ourselves forward towards that awesome future we so desperately want.
Emotionally, there have been a lot of ups and downs. It's hard to count the number of instances where we've gone from feeling like we're on top of the world and full of wonder and joy at everything to feeling painfully, utterly hopeless, sometimes in the blink of an eye, sometimes for no reason at all. You've tried to open yourself up more, give yourself the privilege of taking pride in your own feelings and opinions, and you haven't quite found the balance between using that to bring yourself confidence, or giving into defensiveness and insecurity and letting an ugly, selfish bitterness that you aren't proud of take the better of you. But it's a bumpy road to understanding yourself, one that we've been on for awhile now, and sometimes you create pieces of yourself that you aren't proud of along the way. But imagine what we can do if we learn from those mistakes and make ourselves better for it, take a smarter approach to the future, move forward instead of staying in place. Imagine the places we can go, the things we can do and say. Imagine how much easier it will be to make our friends and family smile.
Just remember that so many of them have stuck with you; don't question it so much. Remember how lucky you are. Remember that so you can give back everything they've given you and then some, even though it may seem impossible to ever repay that sort of debt. Even though sometimes it's hard to watch them suffer, and even harder when, sometimes, you have to watch the bonds amongst them break, please, please never forget that it's worth it - that the things that bring pain also bring smiles that you wouldn't trade for anything, ever. Without both, you have nothing, and we know all too well what that feels like. Never again, Future Me. Please.
And then it took you five days to come back and finish this! Good grief. Though maybe there isn't much else to say after all, is there? Maybe you didn't meet all of your goals this year, but you've come a long way. So keep going, okay? I don't know where we're headed, if it means failure or greatness or neither, but I think that we'll love ourselves a lot more for being brave enough to take the journey.
So I'll say that's all for now. See you after another year.