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time capsule 2012
THE TIME CAPSULE MEME year 2012 ♡ make yourself a thread so your friends can leave you messages with their thoughts about you, their wishes for you for next year, etcetera. ♡ you can also leave yourself a message... anything that you can look back on next year and reminisce about. ♡ on january 8th, 2013, this post will be set to private and put away. in december of 2013, it will be re-opened and then you can look through your old comments from the year before and do with them what you will. ♡ previous years' capsules can be found here. |
i clearly cant do anything right
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this time, it actually feels like an intimate letter rather than it being just for shits and giggles. every year, i anticipate reading what i wrote and end up being entirely disappointed because all i find is old me being exactly what i can never overcome - lazy.
but i did read something that reached my own heart. i had written that if i fail, it's alright. if i didn't go to another IB school and beat the shit out of my grades, it'd be okay. and i felt better. but then i'd said "but you have to try your best. you can fail but at the end you gotta be able to say you did your best." and tbh, we all know i didn't do my best.
but i met tulga because i was dicking around. and i think that was meant to be. he's one of the biggest pillars in my life. he showed me how people who are not of my blood can care for me. we've been through a lot and i'm hoping you'll be living with him now, but things happen. make sure you try your best. not like how you ruined everything for you and tsetsen, bumbi, sugraa and stuff.
right now, i know i love him. with the whole of my heart.
as for bros.. well im not part of it anymore. i dont know what changed, but something went wrong and now i cant seem to feel the same union or devotion i felt for them back in 2011. i think it's tulga.
either way, im going to wish you good luck on finding better friends in new york. right now, while i type this, i am very conscious of how i don't have any real life friends. online friends - they better be becoming real life ones SOON.
i fucked up in eleventh grade but i picked it up well this year. you better keep it up.
the only person who will always be with you
((((((hahahahaha))))))))
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i hope 2013 has been better for you. this year has had some ups and downs, but you always make it through somehow. you're a strong person, and i hope you can start to truly feel that way about yourself.
all my love!
- jess ♥
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now you cant B)
rennnn i hope you know i love you
The good things don't always soften the bad things, but vice-versa, the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.
rennnnn♥
the first thing that came into mind when i was thinking about things i want to tell you and let you know was this quote because it fits and i hope fervently that you remember it so that you won't be so hard on yourself if sometimes bad things happen. they happen, and we have to accept that they happen because this life isn't perfect, but it's our life and it's all we've got. bad or good, we still have to be brave and live life, so don't let things get you down and dim the fire that i KNOW is in you, that spark and burning passion for life in you that i admire so much and help draw me out from my shell to become the more outgoing person i am today. i don't know if you remember, but i was super shy and super reserved back then, but you were always there to reach out to me and send me messages and talk to me and i really grew a lot from that point - i'll forever think of you as a dear dear friend of mine (let's hope it's not just wishful thinking on my part!) and this is the second year we're doing this meme together and i am glad we're still friends while i'm typing this. WE BETTER STILL BE FRIENDS WHEN YOU'RE READING THIS, OR ELSE I WILL COME AND GET YOU ALRIGHT??? i really honestly will, just saying.
we didn't really get the chance to talk much in 2012 but i hope the 2013!ren reading this will go 'hah' and say 'boo yah jy and i talked a lot this year or something' to our past selves because mannn i have missed talking to you so so much. if anything, my new year resolution to to talk more with taka and ren because you two are super precious friends and i want to keep you guys close to me forever if possible. to the ren reading this in the cold december month of 2013 and if the world hasn't ended by then, i hope the people in your life is treating you well, i hope your relationship is still going strong and happy, i hope you find friends (you already have me though) who will know how to cherish and appreciate you for who you are and i hope your studies are going well and you are well on your way to achieve your dreams. lastly, i hope the ren reading this is happy and contented with life.
love, jy ♥
(no fancy formatting because i am on stolen time via someone else's computer but hey i stole your html from last year's meme so there's a certain symmetry to our comments?? SYMBOLISM YO somebody better analyse this thing asap)
what are you saying bb
geez part of me is glad that 2012 is over because I HAVE MORE TIME NOW (I THINK... until I get a job pfft) but tbh, I felt pretty angry at myself because I pushed aside many things and blamed school for the lack of time to do them, when I think that if I had better time management I most probably would have been able to accomplish. and those things consisted of keeping in touch with friends like yourself!! cries, in this entire year, I began to realise that perhaps I didn't know my friends too well (it's a depressing thought ;;) so in 2013 and the future years to come, I'll work towards correcting that. This time I'll be the one chasing after you Ren, so watch out!! ;)))
(HOPEFULLY SOMETHING CHANGES FOR THE BETTER WHEN YOU REREAD THIS IN 2013...... ACK)
(you can keep running, but) i'll always be there to bring you back took this from a certain video game COUGHS
Love,
Taka!
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I know we haven't talked much this year, but I do know that you are a great person with a good heart. I know things haven't been the easiest, but I know you can make it through everything! I wish you the best of luck and happiness in the coming year(s)!
Love,
JEAN!