this time, it actually feels like an intimate letter rather than it being just for shits and giggles. every year, i anticipate reading what i wrote and end up being entirely disappointed because all i find is old me being exactly what i can never overcome - lazy.
but i did read something that reached my own heart. i had written that if i fail, it's alright. if i didn't go to another IB school and beat the shit out of my grades, it'd be okay. and i felt better. but then i'd said "but you have to try your best. you can fail but at the end you gotta be able to say you did your best." and tbh, we all know i didn't do my best.
but i met tulga because i was dicking around. and i think that was meant to be. he's one of the biggest pillars in my life. he showed me how people who are not of my blood can care for me. we've been through a lot and i'm hoping you'll be living with him now, but things happen. make sure you try your best. not like how you ruined everything for you and tsetsen, bumbi, sugraa and stuff.
right now, i know i love him. with the whole of my heart.
as for bros.. well im not part of it anymore. i dont know what changed, but something went wrong and now i cant seem to feel the same union or devotion i felt for them back in 2011. i think it's tulga.
either way, im going to wish you good luck on finding better friends in new york. right now, while i type this, i am very conscious of how i don't have any real life friends. online friends - they better be becoming real life ones SOON.
i fucked up in eleventh grade but i picked it up well this year. you better keep it up.
the only person who will always be with you ((((((hahahahaha))))))))
Re: i clearly cant do anything right
this time, it actually feels like an intimate letter rather than it being just for shits and giggles. every year, i anticipate reading what i wrote and end up being entirely disappointed because all i find is old me being exactly what i can never overcome - lazy.
but i did read something that reached my own heart. i had written that if i fail, it's alright. if i didn't go to another IB school and beat the shit out of my grades, it'd be okay. and i felt better. but then i'd said "but you have to try your best. you can fail but at the end you gotta be able to say you did your best." and tbh, we all know i didn't do my best.
but i met tulga because i was dicking around. and i think that was meant to be. he's one of the biggest pillars in my life. he showed me how people who are not of my blood can care for me. we've been through a lot and i'm hoping you'll be living with him now, but things happen. make sure you try your best. not like how you ruined everything for you and tsetsen, bumbi, sugraa and stuff.
right now, i know i love him. with the whole of my heart.
as for bros.. well im not part of it anymore. i dont know what changed, but something went wrong and now i cant seem to feel the same union or devotion i felt for them back in 2011. i think it's tulga.
either way, im going to wish you good luck on finding better friends in new york. right now, while i type this, i am very conscious of how i don't have any real life friends. online friends - they better be becoming real life ones SOON.
i fucked up in eleventh grade but i picked it up well this year. you better keep it up.
the only person who will always be with you
((((((hahahahaha))))))))