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time capsule 2012
THE TIME CAPSULE MEME year 2012 ♡ make yourself a thread so your friends can leave you messages with their thoughts about you, their wishes for you for next year, etcetera. ♡ you can also leave yourself a message... anything that you can look back on next year and reminisce about. ♡ on january 8th, 2013, this post will be set to private and put away. in december of 2013, it will be re-opened and then you can look through your old comments from the year before and do with them what you will. ♡ previous years' capsules can be found here. |
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To the 22-year-old Miki,
How are you? Are you still using your laptop (Toshi)? Do you have a stable job now? Do you have your new cabinet for your new books now? Did you accomplished reading 100 books this year? Are you still a fan of showa idols? Did you keep your promise that you will STAY with SMAP? You just celebrated being their fan for 2 years. Have you written and finished more stories than last year? Are they published now or will they be published next year? How about your life this year? Is 2013 a better year than 2012?
As what you said before, a lot of things happened in 2012. I could say that it’s a 50/50 thing. Half good, half bad.
You were able to watch Kouhaku with your online friends even though you’re not together. You were able to watch 2011-2012 Johnny’s countdown too. You said you started the year with a bang and hoped that because you started it fangirling, the year 2012 will be nice to you.
You and your groupmates did your best to finish your thesis. I’m so happy that you defended it smoothly and your group's thesis ended up being a candidate for 'Best Thesis'. Then the best thing that happened in your life in 2012 is you finally graduated. No more school, no more 'feeling-major' minor subjects and terror and boring professors. But I know that deep inside, you miss school, or not really the school itself but your friends. You were able to survive those four years because of them.
You also met a lot of wonderful people in 2012 and lose communication with other people you met last 2011. Maybe it’s because you have different interests now but you know to yourself that you will never forget them, that you will always think about them and 'what went wrong'.
I’m so proud of you because you were able to write and finish three stories (novellas) last year. One of them got published and two were accepted, and maybe, will be published in 2013. (Were you able to see them?) I’m so happy that you finally accomplished something related to your dreams.
Then of course, you were able to fangirl hard on SMAP. I know that you will remember them for making you almost a hikikomori, making you stay up so late and for giving you all the feels in 2012. You cried so hard, you flailed so hard. I wonder why you’re still sane as you write this.
Is Nakai still hosting numerous tv shows? How about Kimura Takuya, did he star in a movie this 2013? Did Inagaki Goro finally imply that he's going to marry Kanno Miho? Do you still have romantic feelings for Kusanagi Tsuyoshi? (Do you feel embarrassed now that you suddenly remembered all your fantasies of him?) and finally, Katori Shingo, is he still your baby, is he still your number 1?
You flailed on your Showa idols too. Do you still love Toshi, Matchy, Yocchan, Go Hiromi, Momoe Yamaguchi (your queen), Nakamori Akina, Matsuda Seiko, Kawai Naoko and Masuda Mia? (Did I forget someone?)
About the other fandoms you have, I know you still haven’t forgotten them. You will always love them, especially Arashi.
Then comes the bad thing:
You spiraled down once again into depression. You contemplated suicide numerous times but I know you don’t want to die. You just want to end the pain. It was so hard for you. As you're writing this now, you’re in the brink of crying because it just hurts inside.
But I’m also so proud to say that you were able to fight off that negative feeling that has been telling you to just end it.
I wish you will continue living. I hope you will finally believe someday that you can be saved, that you can be happy, that depression is not really your home, that you can live the way you wanted to, no matter how hard it is to believe.
I hope when you’re reading all the bad things that happened here, you’re already strong and those things will not affect you and that you are already a happy and a healthy girl and you're able to meet more people and that you're still friends with the people you met in 2011 and 2012.
I love you, no matter how much you hate yourself.
Keep on smiling.
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HOW CAN YOU FORGET YOUR OTHER ACCOMPLISHMENT in 2012!
You passed the Civil Service Examination on your first try and you didn't even reviewed that much because you're such a lazy ass and just guessed everything in the math section because, well, it's MATH.
Anyway,I wish you will accomplish more this year. labyu.
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Small world isn't it? Who knew we actually met in GSR years back :'D and we both knew Ate Clarice haha ;; Then again somehow I wished we did talk as much as we talk to each other now back then. It would have been awesome. XD Nevertheless, I'm still glad I was able to find a way to reconnect and talk to you....
Except I forgot how we really started. All i remember was talking to you at twitter about Chinen or... was it Yamada. BASTA ABOUT SA JUMP and that marked Miya and Miki's crazy tweets about Chinen during holy hours |D
Thank you for being a part of my 2012 and I'm really glad we became friends. HOPEFULLY BY 2013, We were able to meet a lot of times and do a lot of crazy stuffs together and of course I hope we've gotten more closer XD
I hope 2013 will be good to you as well~ /o/
♥ Lot,
Miya~
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Uhm we just started following each other on Twitter recently because Kim said I should go follow you, and I'm glad she did because heehee it's so fun flailing SMAP with you. My FB timeline is currently flooded with kimutaku!goodness and just wow. I have yet to find my bias but Kimura-san's been leading in the tally results. I'll let you know the next time capsule meme when I've found my SMAP idol heehee
Also uhm sorry if I read the letter you left yourself here but wow you are published *u* I'm so proud of youuuuu~ /sempai in life *starry eyes* can you be my mentor? *blushes in embarrassment*
I know I'm always crazily ranting about school and stuff but please don't think you'll be a nuisance *_* I hope we can talk more on 2013 and maybe we can meet and flail SMAP together heehee *u*
Thank you for being a part of my 2012 ne *u*
- Ingrid ♥
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Thank you for being a part of my 2012! I always remember you as the nocturnal Miki who always stay up super later on twitter. XD
I hope we can be closer in the span of 2013! Have a wonderful year :)
Love always,
Jilyn ♡
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haro/hawayu?
I'll be brutally, creepily honest here.
The reason why I like talking to you now, aside from the obvious fact that we have similar interests, is because I relate to you and your problems more than anyone else. We've been through (still are, tbh) the same stuff and I wouldn't want you to go through it alone.
I love you too much, and I hope eventually, we'll be okay.
Thank you for meeting me this 2012.
Let's be better friends this 2013.
love and peace,
Marchy ♥
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2013!Miki :D whatever you plan to do and wish to do I hope that all of that was accomplished. I'm saying like it's done coz I believe you can do it! :D You can fight in this world like everyone so keep fighting 'til the end :D